why oh why did i even agree to take part in the marathon! now that i've decided to stop smoking, i'm suffering from the withdrawal so badly. it's been a week & i'm still not cured.. i could just cut my lungs open any second  now & scrub it clean. OR, i could just pick up a fucking stick a smoke that piece of shit. but then again, i'll look back & remember why i'm doing it. godammit.