so i guess it's just another night; a rather humid one indeed. & i'm stuck at home facing the com again. well, i planned to hit the clubs tonight but.. sighs. life is getting boring. anyway, last night at J's with E & S was awesome. it.was.EPIC. was already a freggin' stoned at A's and being at J's was... whoahh~ killer! left at the crack of dawn and cabbed my broke ass home to sleep.
now it's just me, the computer and the rusty old fan. god, it's so warm.. makes me think back on all the recent shitty situations i've been falling in. damn thoughts just throwing itself around in my head, as if they're in those big inflated bouncy castle one would see at a carnival..
just the other day, i found out something new about myself. something i did that i didn't like. something i kinda' didn't expect myself to be. something that just threw me back a notch. standing from a distance & observing oneself can be freaky. doesn't mean it won't be good at times but at that moment, i didn't know who i was. It was like seeing myself in another whole new dimension.
i mean, do you realize there will be a certain time in life where you would swear to yourself that you will never be like him or her, that you wouldn't wanna be like this or that? but honestly, majority of us becomes that nightmare we were so afraid to be, becomes that villain we vowed never to be. i don't need to know the exact figure to prove myself. because like it or not, this deranged sanity is real. and to some, how unfortunate, it's here to haunt them for the rest of their life.
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