what was i actually hoping for?! forever lasting friendship in you? you are the very same kind, like the rest, that walked into my life & dumped all your fucking nonsense on me, then walked out. we knew all along. but only i was stupid enough to believe that i could still find someone who would stick by my side & understand where i was coming from. 5 fucking years of "training" & i still couldn't pass it. this time, i've really outdone myself.
it's completely clear. & now you know why i have a fucking trust issue shit. after years of socializing and getting close to people whom i chose to trust, they turn their back against me. some even blame me for ignoring them! such wonders of the human mind.
For once, i really thought i actually found someone to share everything with. E.v.e.r.y.t.h.i.n.g. I thought father-time proved me wrong in many ways. But sad to say, it seems like i was right all along. You're still that same lil' pathetic imbecile, who irritates the fuck out of everyone 'cus of your own fucking selfish wants & needs. Keeping secrets for you & hiding the ugly truth about you from nearly everyone including yourself- i sorta' like HAD to do it.. for You. Fine. No biggie. You refuse to tell a complete story or share whatver stuffs you had from/about me, fine. Your privacy will be respected. & if that's called "Being good buddies" to you, sure. Everyone is entitled to their own opinions & beliefs. But, when i wanted you to just shut your fucking trap 'bout certain stuffs ('cus you don't know nuts), you just couldn't do it could you? You had to poke your goddamn nose into it. Give a speech about something totally untrue did you now? If i'm not wrong, i think you just ruined something different i thought i had with someone else. Way to go. A round of applause, a round of applause..
And you over there, ... i'm just speechless. The thought of you actually reacting this way is just.. impossible.
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