Does it now?

i have gotten so good in pretending i'm doing fine,
i am starting to believe myself.
maybe it's good. maybe it keeps me stronger.

ahh, i don't know. 

deep down, i probably don't care anymore.

ANYHOO, my dad wants me to stop studying & start working for his friend. yeah, i know i get it. it's a good experience but.. urgh! i just got into NAFA and you're telling me this crap now?! hey! i wanna study too. at least let me get my diploma cert. mom had her say and sighs.. she's effing hell probably right somewhere. maybe i do need to work instead of studying, for now. damn depressed over it. i feel so crushed just by hearing it in my head.