i start to feel like i can't maintain the facade any longer,that i may just start to show through. and i wish i knew what was wrong. maybe something about how stupid my whole life is. i don't know. why does the rest of the world put up with the hypocrisy, the need to put a happy face on sorrow, the need to keep on keeping on? i don't know the answer, i only know that i can't. i don't want anymore vicissitudes, i don't want any more of this try, try again stuff. i just want out. i've had it. i am so tired. i'm eighteen and i am already exhausted.

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What is it in us that makes us feel the need to keep pretending... we gotta let ourselves be.

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